I'll dump random thoughts on here whenever I feel like it...
My headmates are interesting people. I feel like everyone in the system has said that about each other at one point, but I really mean it. I'm not really the most articulate guy. You know, the best way I can describe what it feels like to have headmates is kind of like when you're at the swimming pool and you need to use the communal showers for whatever reason (maybe someone pissed on you, for example). Someone else clearly used the shower stall before you, but you don't like, know what they did in the shower. But the shower's all wet and gross and kind of smells like a mixture of sweat and cheap all-in-one shampoo.
I don't really get how some of my headmates think. I mean, I don't really think at all. I take things at face value, maybe too much. If I don't like something, I know it's not like I'm going to hate it forever. I have no sense of past and future. I'm genuinely just here? But also, I know this can cause complications, like maybe the body is lonely or lacking truly deep interactions or whatever. I have no idea. Because it's not like I have any deep feelings either. I'm not apathetic, but it's like my experience of the world is dipping my toes into the kiddy pool. (Back with the pool analogy again!) Or maybe I'm just a guy stumbling into a crazy ruined shower. Like, maybe the person before me forgot their towel, hence why the shower's all yucky and a literal cesspool.
My curly haired roommates are fascinating...my hair is straighter than I'll ever be so it's interesting learning about hair care. (Out of system, like actual roommates.) Okay! That's all. Weird ass sensation, using the body after it's clearly been through something. I am vaguely aware (though I know I'm not supposed to have access to this memory/knowledge) that sometimes the body just, shuts down. Like literally freezes and goes full-on hide mode, like "if you move you die" but extreme obby impossible challenge 3 AM crazy 2016 YouTube thumbnail title. Yay!
I don't have much time to tinker with my site but please stay prepared as this place gets prettier and prettier...heh heh heh...
It's weird to have wildly different hobbies compared to the rest of my headmates. I can feel the others getting bored while I do my programming stuff, but then I get bored when they're doing their writing things. I mean, full on literary worldbuilding or whatever...I don't know guys, I can barely read anything for more than 1 second. Ironic that I'm writing this in my blog of all things, but you know, this is kind of thoughtless minus adding punctuation and stuff.
Dude I'm going to make the best website ever, TRUST. I'm learning web code slowly but surely...I was about to say surely but surely just now. I can't really think of much else to say. I mean, I have a few complaints, but it's not impacting my quality of life too much. This is excluding all the mental stuff. I actually feel like these days, our brain is creating all of our problems. Like, leaving a very problematic environment is really weird like that, you know? I feel like someone else in the system, like our "host" (if he qualifies as that) would've articulated that better. I don't have any complex or conflicting thoughts about this, it's just like eh, you know? And I want to make my website look pretty.
One of my roommates brought the CUTEST emotional support cat ever. She seems to be able to sense when I'm fronting? Like she's the most affectionate when I'm fronting, which is really neat. Maybe I'm just looking for things I want to see though, but I swear, she can tell that I am a cat too...internally...pspspsp...
I sound super unfunny on here...probably because I'm monologuing right now...